When will everything be normal again? in Just exhausted.

Life for everyone has certainly been flipped around since this whole pandemic started. The amount of stress has doubled and anxiety is at an all time high. It’s so frustrating having to constantly put life on hold and miss out on so much because of this. I left the vocational program I was in because I was pregnant in July of last year and couldn’t handle the stress. Only to wind up miscarrying at 4 months. Ever since I lost my baby I feel like I have became a hermit and sheltering my 4 year old because the thought of them getting sick terrifies me. My son was suppose to start preschool this year. He has finally started making strides in his delays and now he will stay home. He won’t make any friends. He won’t hang out with any children his ages since we live in a new area. He’s alone and lonely. I do my best and try to play with him and make his days as fun as possible, but there is only so much I can do. I feel like I am letting him down. But, I refuse to willing put my son in danger knowing things are picking up again.
Am I being over bearing? I am taking things to far? I’m so over whelmed with all the decisions I constantly have to make. There’s too many. I just want things to be normal again. This is all too much. I want to be able to go out to store again with out being paranoid I didn’t disinfect the cart good enough and I am going to get my family sick. Or I didn’t put enough hand sanitizer on or didn’t wash my hands well enough. I am tired of feeling like I am the only one taking it as seriously as I do. I don’t know if it is because my anxiety is making me taking it more serious then others. I can’t stop my thoughts that are constantly buzzing in my head all day. I can’t even be around someone coughing with out worrying for the next hour. My thoughts will be death of me.