I was writing here a while back and was really enjoying having a place to empty my thoughts out into written words. And then suddenly I decided to rage delete the whole thing because I had a moment of feeling uncomfortable. Not actually happened. I was just feeling sad and weird and I was on my period. I hate to be like that and blame my period, but I know it would be a lie to say it had nothing to do with it. So I got on here one day and just deleted everything. I was sad as soon as I did it. I wish I had saved some of the stuff I had written first. But it was all gone.
One of things that made me feel uncomfortable here was the fact that almost all the notes I got were from older guys. There’s nothing wrong with that. No body was crude or said anything inappropriate to me. I actually really liked some of the people who were noting me and saying nice helpful things. But it just started to concern me that on a website like this that seems to be primarily used by girls and women, I was attracting the attention of all the men here. I don’t know why that made me feel weird. On some level it should have made me feel good. But, like I said, I can’t really explain my actions. It was a sudden decision made without really considering the consequences.
So I went a while without coming back. I felt embarrassed for the way I disappeared. But today I really was wishing I had some place to write and found myself coming to this website.
I feel silly trying to come back. I kind of hope no on recognizes me.
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