Another Week Done in Everyday Rants...

I probably say that too much.

Finally have one customer completely finished… after the 3rd set of sections. First two had the same issue, I could see daylight through all section gaps in the door, even with the lights in the garage on. The second set was actually worse than the first. This time I opted to use a different manufacturer. My picky ass customer is now satisfied and paid in full. I cannot word how big a sigh of relief I let out when I turned off her road, leaving her house. God, I hope her springs or opener don’t break any time in the near future. I don’t want to see that place again.

This week has been.... a roller coaster in my head. Lots of ups and down. I’m not sure how I’ve held together, but I have. I really think it’s just being here. I don’t think I’m going to get any better until I get back to Texas. It’s been clear and sunny pretty much all week. As the natives would say “the mountains are out”. Yeah, that’s totally lost on me at this point. They aren’t scenic or pretty anymore, to me. Every hill I have to drive up, every valley I look out over, crossing the rivers, it just annoys me, because it just confirms that I’m still here. It’s an inescapable truth. I can’t lie to myself about it. Where I’m from in Texas is pretty much flat. I never thought I would miss that. Even my yard here is on a noticeable slope. This place just annoys me now. I can’t go anywhere, I can’t do anything without some slap in the face of some bad memory, or some reminder of something or other that stings like a bitch. All the talk of R’s pregnancy is definitely adding to it. To the point, I was in the back office getting the computer started up that hosts our database for our accounting software - which is slower than a cardboard shit - and she was going on and on about it with one of the other techs who has kids, and I ended up having to put my fingers in my ears. I feel guilty for feeling this way, but at the same time I don’t. Kinda messed up, right?

I’ve been good about not having music or anything set me off while working, but that failed me today. I’ve been listening to Micheal Buble’s “Someday”… basically on repeat - A LOT. For that, YouTube has decided to inject more of his collection on top of the upbeat country music I’m usually listening to while I’m working. On my section swap today, that happened too much. I started getting a bit iffy when Buble’s “Home” came on, hit skip, got Meghan Trainor’s (I think) “Gonna love you like I’m gonna lose you”, got slightly misty, hit skip, had to skip two more emotional down beat songs, got Phil Collins’ “Do You Remember”, and flung my headphones at the wall. If you were wondering, Bose QuietComfort QC35’s are surprisingly durable. Oops. So I basically had to finish that job with only the noise cancelling on.

I got back to the shop to find out that it was a co-worker’s 20 year anniversary with the company. Boss is sending him to Hawai’i. So I faked smiles as long as I could, ate, then snuck off to the back lot to throw away garbage from my van - aka have a smoke break. I hate having to fake being social. Right now, that really isn’t what I want. But I think one of the other techs, possibly two, figured that out.

As I’m typing this, one of my dickweed neighbors is sitting in his car blasting his subwoofer. Given I can’t deal well with loud noises or bumping bass, you can only imagine how happy that makes me. Another reason I cannot continue to live in the city.

I came home and mowed the yard… okay, I mowed out in front of the fence. First time since probably September or October. I also managed to get myself sunburned. But I did both the “knock down” and the “top cut” as I call them. Knock down gets it from the unkempt height to 3-4 inches tall, “top cut” picks up the clippings and sets the lines. This time, instead of leaving a pattern that runs 90 degrees to my fence, I top cut 45 degrees to the fence, and did it in difference directions on either side of my driveway. 9 and a half years here, and I’ve always cut that part of the yard the same way. Guess I need more change than I realized. I wasn’t paying attention that I was doing that until I backed into the mailbox. Guess I’m going to have to get some sunscreen. I want to try and get the yard mowed fully this weekend, but given last weekend was spent doing BS projects at the office so I didn’t have to be home, it might be better if I just shut out the world and stay on the couch. I’ve been half dead all week. Might be better to recharge. I’ve also had to switch over to the air conditioner today, as it actually got above 70F. I’ll probably have to switch back to the furnace later, but we’ll see.

I don’t know if I’ll make another entry this weekend. I’m contemplating shutting off social media this weekend. That and my laptop’s keyboard is getting sketchy. I’ll type something, it’ll miss like 8 or 9 letters, then suddenly start working again. Sometimes I catch it, sometimes not. Current debate is between fixing this old Core i7 machine that came with Windows 7, and getting a new one. Don’t really want to get a new one, but an upgrade would be nice.