So I didn't get the position... I guess if I'd thought the interview went poorly I'd be less upset, but... my temp person said they went with someone with more experience.
Of course they did. Because for some reason people don't think working as an operations manager in retail is relevant experience.
Anyway, at the very least, this has really shaped my views for what I need to do. Despite my father being negative about everything, everyone else I know, EVERYONE, has weighed in their support and advice and here's what's going to happen.
I have my resume submitted for another temp-to-hire job here. I will interview for it if they want to meet with me. If I get it, I will stay here a little longer. If I don't, then it's "sayonara, Virginia" and I am going to try to be in Ohio at my friend Catie's by the end of May if not earlier. I am already going to Ohio on that trip that was originally supposed to happen in October, and that will be the weekend after Easter. It was supposed to be a friendly visit and nothing more, but I will have a better idea by then about my job prospects here and I may turn it into the first part of my move. I can't bring everything of course, and I still probably won't be bringing furniture but I can take things I would like to have with me but won't need when I come back to Virginia after my visit initially (and then I'll just make another trip a week or two later, maybe a 3rd but I can probably be okay with 2 trips).
I already asked Catie if the offer to let me live in her house still stood--it does, and she still said I don't need to pay rent. Obviously if I have the means to pay something (i.e. I do find a job in Cincinnati and maybe I commute from Kettering until I go down there hopefully by August) I will pay her. Otherwise I may just try to earn my keep by taking care of her dogs and cleaning the house and mowing or other things she otherwise needs help doing.
I don't feel 100% comfortable with this decision because it's not in my original time table, but the more I think about it, the more sense it makes to me. One of the other things that bothered me was the difficulty in apartment hunting in Cinci, since neither I nor Cori live anywhere close and I'd rather not keep bugging my friends to check out apartments for me. This way I can apartment hunt online with Cori and even Skype video through my phone if I go to see an apartment (that way he can help me out with questions and concerns) and neither of us needs to spend hundreds of dollars on plane tickets, or risk a sight-unseen move.
So... thoughts ?
I'm pretty scared. But really, what's the worst that could happen ? One of the girls in my therapy group said, "Be realistic about the worst that could happen. Sure, you think the worst is that you end up living in a box under a bridge. But your parents will take you back before that happens, or your grandfather can help you out, or it even sounds like your brother may be able to do something. So prepare for the worst, but be realistic about what that may actually be." And at the VERY least, Catie would take me back I'm sure, Amanda lives in a 1 BR apartment in Beavercreek but I know she would take me in (or ask her mom to, who lives in a house in Beavercreek)... I have options. This is why I was hoping for Cincinnati instead of West Virginia or Washington State.
So... my address may be different in 6 weeks. And I'm okay with that.
~Rachel
P.S. All of this has been stressing me out and keeping me busy, so please forgive me if I don't seem like I'm around much.
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