What do I miss from home the past few days - Earl Grey Vanilla. That stuff is magic in a cup!
In 5 days I will have the first of probably many important meetings. I've spent the last few days trying to gather information that I think may be needed to speed up the process. Organizing what I already have by date. Sometimes being a pack rat and being obsessed with organization comes in handy. Sadly, so far it's not really much as I really don't know what I will need. I'm nervous, excited, anxious to get this all over with. Soon I can start looking into finishing my nursing education. I'm really excited for that too.
Next week I will start helping out with babygirl2 - she's just over 1. She'll be coming over while her mommy is at work/school. She's probably going to cry a lot but that is ok. She'll be safe and we'll have fun. It also means that this weekend we'll have to go pick up some basic baby things - a pack and go, a high chair, some toys. It's been forever since I've had a child that small in my house all day. This should be interesting!
This past week has been odd in some ways. It started with the Easter family dinner at his mom's house. Then dinner out on Wednesday with his mom and his two girls. Both were fabulous!! Tonight it's dinner with his sister and her husband. I love it grant you - but at the same time something nagging me in the back of my mind that something is wrong... terribly wrong.. somewhere. I hate that feeling. That crazy ominous feeling that the other shoe is going to drop soon - and you don't know how.. or why or to who.
I believe in spirits. I should qualify that before I start the next sentence. But my spirits come around me (and my daughter) usually months before someone close to us passes away. Sort of a ... warning? Maybe their near to ensure we know it's ok. Are they male or female? I can't really say. I just know they come. At my old residence there was just one. It was there when my grandparents passed, my dad, my mom, my uncle. I remember all of them. The most recent one was my mom and uncle. The spirit was there for months before my mom passed and once she passed it was gone. When it came back I remember saying that it was too soon to my daughter. It was gone for only a few weeks. My mom passed in January and my uncle passed in April - of the same year. Once he passed it was gone again.
Then I moved.
There are so many spirits here. I don't know why there are so many here. They have been here for about 3 months now. These ones are different - more brave? It's hard to describe. They are always around the bed. Sometimes standing right beside it.. sometimes sitting on the window sill above it. Do they scare me.. no not really. Their presence does not scare me at all......it's the reason they come that does. I don't know who or when... but this one is going to be really hard or there would not be so many.
Is this the reason the family has all been seen this week? Is this the universe making sure everyone sees everyone else before the big event?
I hope not......
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