I’ve been diagnosed with and anxiety disorder a year ago, but I’m sure i’ve had it for way more time.
I would like to start off by saying that anxiety can be a constant struggle. It’s a fight for your own sanity and well-being. From my experience, anxiety leads to depression and not the most pleasant thoughts.
Sometimes anxiety seems never-ending. It seems like you’re going to be like this forever - especially in a time of crisis. But, as with everything in life, it has it’s ups and downs. One day you may be feeling on top of the world, and the next day you may find yourself unable to leave your bed because of how much thoughts are racing in your mind.
Anxiety is overwhelming. It’s a big problem that can rarely be completely solved. Since anxiety is a feeling - just like sadness or happiness, it can come and it can go. But for me it never goes. It’s always there, lurking somewhere in my mind. Sometimes i can’t even notice it. Sometimes it hits so hard that i can’t stop crying. Sometimes it just feels like my mind is a nightmare.
To be honest, this anxious state that I exist in makes me feel so guilty. I don’t have that many problems to worry about, yet i can’t help it. It’s something that you’ll have to learn to accept, to manage and to love, even.
You can’t help anxiety by hating it and wishing for it to go away and never come back, even though it’s all that I, personally, want. It won’t leave just like that. As i’ve said, it’s a struggle. It may even seem like a war. A war between you and your own mind. Seems odd, doesn’t it?
Anxiety can severely affect you life. It can change who you are. It can make you isolate yourself. It is truly terrifying if you think about it. Yet a lot of people keep seeing it as simple whining or weakness. It’s not. I hope people will understand it one day.
My anxiety hits me at random times. I cannot predict it, i cannot help it. It’s in my nature. It’s something that i was most likely born with. It’s the only thing I can think of sometimes. Truly a weird thing.
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