Why is this time around so much harder?..... in 2020 New decade

… I never thought that I would be going through yet another divorce. This year has not been kind but then again the last few years havent been what I thought it would be. I don’t know if I just wanted to ignore all the signs that he was cheating for some time and with his stepdaughter none less. That still hurts so much and I don’t think I will ever get over that ever. I went over to the house when he was gone yesterday and it looks like they are sleeping in the same bed now. When I told my mom said well what did you except? Like wow kick me when I’m down thanks mom. If I go over to the house while hes there I get asked what the hell I want. Funny I still have key and my name is still one the lease. Well i better get going. Take care