Tired in 2020

That’s how I feel. Just…tired.

We got back from Florida last Monday, I went to work on Tuesday and Wednesday and Friday and Saturday and Monday and Tuesday and then again today. I’m beyond happy to finally have two days off in a row as I don’t have to be back at the library til Saturday. I love my job, I’m just a wee bit over people right now.

It’s been a bit of a rollercoaster this week. Rob decided to do keto again, and I tried to do it in support of him but it was just brutal. By yesterday I was exhausted and hungry and headachy and just didn’t see the sense in any of it, so when someone delivered warm fresh-baked cookies to us at work I threw in the towel. I told Rob I’ll cook keto for him, but I just can’t hold myself to that. If you tell me I can’t have carbs, they are suddenly all I can think about.

Also it feels like everyone is up in my grill about the Washington football team changing their name. It’s not really everyone, just my son and my father-in-law, but I’m over it. I have no control over this, how do they expect me to react? I was born loving that team, of course I’ll still love them with a new name! And yes, change is hard, but I really don’t enjoy being poked about it and asked what I think like I’m supposed to have deep thoughts when I’m just TIRED.

Same about school. It feels like there is such a dichotomy. My kids want to go to school, and they are old enough to understand things like wearing masks and being diligent about hand-washing - so I chose that option for them when we were given the option this week. And online (not here, this is a diary site, not the same - but social media is a different ballgame) I feel like so many people are OUTRAGED that some parents are opting to send their kids to school. It hasn’t even happened yet, and I feel like I’m going to be a pariah. I have to do what I feel is best for my kids, and I feel like they are old enough to have some input.

But in good news, Jim Butcher came out with a new Dresden Files novel this week - the first in six years! I got it from the library and read it in one day. It’s been ages since I’ve done that, I started it yesterday afternoon and finished it on my lunch hour today, and I loved it. I need to make more time for reading, it’s definitely a boon for my sanity.