Help Requested. in Random Thoughts

So with my mental madness, I suck at social cues, and usual err on the side of “she’s just being nice”. Probably not the best way to do it, but it keeps me out of trouble and from looking like a total douchebag.

There’s a barista at the place I go to who is always exceptionally nice to me. More so than what I’m used to. But I seriously cannot tell if she’s just being nice because it’s her job, or if she’s being nice because she likes me.
This sounds like middle school, right? Welcome to my world.
There are actually two at this place who seem to go out of their way for me, talk to me a bit longer than others, more smiles, etc. The one today, a very very cute brunette who I can’t deny I do have a bit of a crush on, came out to get my order when there was only one other person in line, and someone else was already outside taking their order. She actually followed me up to the window to talk even though another customer or two had pulled in behind me. She’s not done that before.

Please don’t say the answer is obvious. I have Asperger’s, and while not as bad as some, there are some things I don’t get. This is one of them. The answer is most definitely NOT OBVIOUS to me. If it were, I wouldn’t be writing this entry.

I want to think she likes me. I’d like that very much. But I also know baristas keep their customers coming back by being nice to them. I know some are much nicer than others. So I haven’t a clue what this is. And I don’t want to straight up ask her if she does, or ask her out, as I think that would just come off creepy and awkward, then I’d have to find a new place to get coffee.

What do you think?

EDIT: 2 hours later I realized something. This whole chaotic confusion in my head about the barista (Christ, I’m gonna end up with yet another “The _” character in my rantings.) has definitely provided a much needed distraction from the chaos caused by M and BL. I’m not complaining. 😆

Last updated May 22, 2020