I slept all day. in Sad boi hours

I slept all day because I have nothing better to do with myself. If i’m asleep, I can’t think about how terribly lonely I am. I don’t think I can trust anyone enough to tell them how i’ve been feeling. I can’t trust my best friend because everything I tell her, she tells her boyfriend. I even know that because he asked her why I broke up with my ex (something I didn’t end up telling anyone because nobody asked) and she told him, I would tell you if I knew. I dont want to tell her anything anymore. I kinda dropped a hint that I liked one of her boyfriends friends and she reacted saying that theres no way I can date her boyfriend’s best friend. And anytime I talk about guys to her, she just tells me that im thirsty. When I just want a relationship with someone I can trust. When I can even tell that to my closest friend, then I can’t really tell anyone else. So i’ll keep things to myself and i’ll keep sleeping.