18.12.19 in this life inside my head

Acceptance. Acceptance. Acceptance. That is the one thing you need to achieve before you move on. That. And of course, closure. I find that over time, it doesn’t hurt less. It hurts more as I find more and more time to think about what had happen. What could have happened. And what did happened. More time for me to overthink and to hurt myself emotionally intentionally to avoid the reality. To blame it on myself. Thinking I should have seen this coming. really. But can anyone really see anything coming? We can expect things to happen. We can imagine all the possible outcomes to one situation. But it is different when you are experiencing it. No matter how much you have prepared yourself for it. Let it happen. Let your imagination run wild. Imagine all possibilities that COULD have happen. Imagine all outcomes. Then accept. Accept the reality. Accept your choices. Accept yourself. Accept the future. And that is what I have done.