March 14 in Bored Alcoholic

I haven't been on a site like this in a long time.. We will see where this goes. I'm not usually great at keeping up with these things, but I am at a place where it might be useful to me to keep track of my day-to-day musings. I say that because I am at one of those crossroads in life where I need to figure out what to do; maybe a writing routine will help me to figure everything out. As usual, the root of my problem is a boy. I don't even know how I got to this place. Four years flew by and now have made the realization that this relationship is just toxic. Sigh. Fucking brilliant. How do you let go of someone you love, when you just HAVE TO? It's just a not so simple when he won't leave me alone. Won't let me go. Won't let me be. I actually think he is oblivious that there are problems between us...or at least about how severe they are..but I also don't know how that can be true. He must be blind or delusional. I left. L.E.F.T. Because of his bad decisions and our disagreements..on..everything. And even though that has happened, months ago, it's still a consuming and exhausting process to excise myself from this mess. I guess on to another glass of wine.. There are plenty of issues at play here. I'll sort it out. Eventually.