15.12.19 in this life inside my head

The longer you hold on to something, the more it becomes an obsession. Are the things you are holding on worth it? Is it worth the pain? Does it make you feel good to keep the bottled up memories that you revisit every night in your dreams? Does it make you feel sad when you wake up and realised it wasn’t real? Why are you so hurt by something that was created in your head? Why do I feel like I am in love with an idea of you that will never be you? Why can’t I just move on? I shouldn’t be in this phase anymore. I am even having conversations with myself. seemingly finding therapy. No luck though. Just going to release my emotions out. Unleash. Admit it. Be true to your truth.