My first attempts in My life so far 13 years strong

When I was 8 I started getting suicidal thoughts I tried to hang myself when I was 8 I started cutting myself at 9 I tried to tie my scarf around my neck and I twisted and twisted until I passed out I wanted to end it all I cried myself to sleep every single night I hated the way I looked and I only lived for my mom and my one friend i would stuff a bra I stole from the store and cry in the mirror every morning wanting to end it all my mom didn’t notice because she was on meth I had scars on all of my limbs I still do I stopped April 17th 2019 it was 4 days before my cats birthday I have to stay here for here and for my friend Mercedez who’s been with me through thick and thin I wouldn’t be alive if it wasn’t for her but I am trying to work on loving myself for her for my amazing bestie who I love and always will