The first few years in My life so far 13 years strong

It started when my mom was all doped up on pain meds and my dad was drunk nine months later I was born October 11 2006 my mom didn’t even hold me she told the nurse to give me to my 15 year old sister and my mom got her tubes tied my sister was the first to feed me change me and hold me she loved me more than a sister almost like a child we talk some but as soon as she joined the army she got distant she had her first kid Julian she loved him with all her heart but his dad was horrible he raped her and abused her on a daily basis she finally broke free when she had suffered for 3 years then she met Brennan her amazing husband corey and Brennan had a baby boy Jordan and recently had Logan but back to me I saw many things when I was young that scared me mentally like my mom puting a gin to her head and screaming to get out of her f***ing face she would blow her brains out or her having to go to a mental hospital for a few weeks or me seeing her doing meth and heroin all before I was 8 but my mom is 2 years clean and I love her so much and I don’t think I would still be here if it wasn’t for her