Mental State Update in Mental Health

It was getting better. It was. i learned recently that progress won’t be as easy as i thought it would be. what I didn’t realize was that there would be ups and downs. once you learn to accept this, it’ll make your mental health journey a lot easier. anyway, I was discharged from a mental hospital today. This was the second time i’ve been this year. i made a good friend there, and it’s hard to accept that i won’t see her ever again. i already miss her. i’m scared that she’s going to get bad again and not make it to the hospital this time. She has so much going for her and doesn’t realize. she’s smart, talented, funny. i hope she’s doing good. as for me, i’m doing okay. it’s hard to get better. i’m not going to school tomorrow. school has been really hard for me. i hope it’ll get better, but as long as i’m in all of my classes everyday, i don’t see it getting any better in the near future. i have to go back to school after tomorrow. i’m not getting much support from my “support system”. i feel awful, to be honest. maybe i should’ve stayed in the hospital longer. i’ll be fine, don’t worry. i still have hope that it’ll get better. i just miss her so much. i’m never going to see her again. i don’t know what to do. i’m going to bed now, so i’ll write more this week. i love you <3