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I opened the door to my house and stood there for a minute with my mail in my hand. It was so quiet and desolate. A car passed by behind me on my residential street with a slight muffler leak and provided a brief soundtrack that matched the mood.

My house let me know bluntly that there is nothing waiting for me while I’m away at work.

Today was the first time that I made the commute all the way home in the middle of the week. It took about 2 hours with all the traffic. Aside from the time and money, sitting in traffic also cost me a little bit of my sanity. I have a friend that makes this drive up & back every. single. day. I don’t know how he does it.

It’s a boring time of year for me in general. I don’t really have any family to spend the holidays with. I used to take on the guise of a person who just doesn’t like to celebrate holidays, but last year I found out that wasn’t the case. My friend invited me to her family Thanksgiving and it was awesome. I ended up being the one to carve the turkey and everyone was impressed with my carving skills (I used to work at Boston Market when I was a teenager.)

I’m not sure if that will happen this year or not. I haven’t really been talking to that friend much; we’re not on very good terms. I’ve really narrowed my friends down to just a core group. In theory that sounds like a good thing, but I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not bad to have a small group of superficial friends to pass the time with when your good friends aren’t available.

All that negative stuff aside; I do feel like I’m getting out of my slump. Despite going through a weird and confusing time, my overall mood and outlook on things is looking up.

I’m gonna get up at 4:00am tomorrow and try to beat the traffic into work.

Ciao!

Last updated October 29, 2019