Electronic correspondence with my doctor (paraphrased)
Me: I was wondering if you had a chance to look at my MRI results.
Him: I did. The cyst is still there but it’s smaller than before. Hoping you are feeling well.
Me: Awesome. Anything else we should do?
Him: Let’s see what happens. If it keeps getting infected, then we may have to remove it. Let me know if you get sick again.
I guess that’s it, for now. Based on my experience over the past year, I have zero confidence it won’t just get infected again. If I can stay healthy I suspect that fear will subside over time. I am annoyed that my doctor didn’t CALL ME like he said he would. I was waiting around anxiously for days..! Wth.
Work was also shit today. There are some unreasonable expectations being set and a lot of my tasks are really nebulous, plus I found it so hard to focus with the above stuff going on. My manager is really frustrated with the things being asked, so he let me know about it just for awareness sake, but it made me feel really defeated.
I am supposed to lift tonight but I feel like I might turn into dust if I have to leave the house. Ironically my trainer made a post on IG this evening about how it’s OK to miss a workout once in awhile. Say no more.