Too Tired in Hi...I guess

I’m too tired.
I don’t feel like I’m getting anything done. I feel useless…
My life is so full of ups and downs that I don’t have time to myself.
I’m too tired. And I’m also tired of all this.
The friendships, the family drama, and the isolation of not fitting in.
I’m tired of the world rubbing in my face that other people can find happiness despite whatever odds.
i’m tired of failing to live up to the expectations of my family and of myself.
I’m tired of working all day, everyday, without breaks in between.
It’s wake up, go to class, go to this meeting, go to the review, write these papers, make these presentations, put together this group project, email your boss, pick up the groceries, and by the time the day is done, I have to be awake in 5 hours.
I hate this life. I want a new one. I want to run away and disappear where no one can find me. I want to go to a place where nobody knows my name or where I’m from. I want to build a new identity for myself, a truer identity of myself. Not what people want me to be, not even what I want me to be. I want to be reborn, to start all over and build my life from scratch again.
I want to escape… I want to run away. I can’t do that though, because I am too tired.