The Big Decision in My Journal

I am confused more today than this same time last week. I had already made my mind up to go ahead and leave Texas and start over in Virginia where I could be near my children, but as usual Felix pulled out his apology bullshit and now I am not even certain if I want to move. I am also so afraid of making this move, because I have to uproot myself again and start over and I don’t want to do that. What if I fall on my face? What if I cannot find a job?