I always love the start of a fresh new month, especially when I'm trying to lose weight. It feels like new years all over again to me where I can say to myself that I am going to be perfect this month and not overeat, recommit myself to exercising a ton, that kind of thing. I did great today with my eating even though I came really close to binging. I overate some goldfish crackers and dried mangos at lunch but I compensated by only eating two small tacos for dinner. I didn't exercise today because the kids had me exhausted by 5pm but that's ok. Tomorrow is another day.
Speaking of a new month, as of today, the 1st, I am 169.4lbs so I really hope I can manage to break into the 150's by April 1st. I have been feeling super lazy lately though. Gotta break out of that. I seriously have zero energy to do a major, full length workout after the kids are in bed though. I'm just spent. Maybe that will change as Miles gets a little older. He still wants to be held a ton and wakes up twice a night for a feeding.
I'm feeling really bummed tonight about how much debt I owe. It just sucks knowing it is going to take me years and years to pay off. I've already gone through all our bills and expenses and trimmed as much as I could off of them to save us money. I also rarely buy anything for myself other than the occasional coffee or sub. I haven't bought new clothes in years besides $100 in maternity clothes that was absolutely necessary last year. I budget our groceries exactly, buy the kids no name diapers and mostly used clothing and I've scoured websites about how to live more frugally. We are getting by but I definitely don't have much extra money. I know it doesn't help that I'm on maternity leave and making less right now but still. I just wish I could pay my debt off faster. The reminder of it is always in the back of my head. Makes me feel a bit like a failure that I let it get high enough that it will take me several years to pay off. Ugh.
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