Three years. We have been together for three years. We’ve gone through so much together. He’s put me through so much. Some may call me stupid. Say it however you want. I loved this man. And for the most part, he was amazing to me. Sunday was the day he cheated and I caught. He blamed me. I came in acting crazy. But I was hurt. My heart was crushed. He left. Came back. Threw my stuff out and I left. We haven’t spoken to each other since, up until today. Well, I’ve reached out. I shouldn’t have. But I have and no reply. He tells me today he needs a break. You need a break? So you can be with someone else? What did I ever do to you? I cook, I clean. I made sure you were good. You paid the bills, but I made sure they were on time. We had each other’s back. Everyone said how good I was for you. Then you do this? You leave me? I couldn’t get out of bed the first couple days. I forced myself to drink water to stay hydrated. I called off two doubles. I couldn’t get out of bed. I wake up with pain in my chest. The anxiety is getting to be too much sometimes. I haven’t experienced this much hurt. I did go to work today. The whole shift. That’s a start. I’m back in bed though. I hope things heal soon. I can’t take the pain much longer. I miss him more than words can express and love him so much. I wish I knew what I did wrong.
My posts will be all over the place. I write what comes to mind and when I need it. I guess this is a journal of how I’m dealing with a heart break.
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