Then and Now in Life

Me Thur 2-26-2004

Star fell through the ice on the pond, and drowned today. When my Uncle found her all he could see was her back, and the back of his black heifer. Its a wonder more of them didnt die the way they like to do everything together. I guess that was one advantage to Star being a loner Its also a good thing that they were dead before my Uncle got there cause he would have put himself in danger trying to save them.

I wish I had been there. I was there when she was brought into the world. I keep thinking about her calf looking and bawling for her. We will probably sell the calf this weekend.

Me Friday 02/27/2004

Thank you all for all your supportive notes about Star. I was worried someone would make fun of me for grieving for a cow. I dont think it has quite sunk in, and probably wont until I go to the farm, and she is not in the pasture. I was telling stories about her today at work. One of my favorite memories is of when she was a calf and it was getting time to sell all the calves. I kept telling my aunt and uncle that I wanted to keep her, and they would say I couldnt because she was the calf of a heifer and they were not good ones to keep. I was crying to Grandma about it and she said that she had never heard that about calves of heifers and besides they were her cows, and if I wanted to keep Star we could. I think my Grandpa was dead by then. He would always say we have to quit keeping calves for the kids but then when it came time to sell calves the one you wanted to keep was not on the trailer going to town. :)

Today was weigh and measure day at Curves. I have only lost an inch and actually gained 2 pounds! Im trying not to be discouraged because while yes I had been working out every day I have not been watching what I eat at all. Now Im determined to keep it up for another month and this time try dieting too. If nothing else I know.....OK hope....I can do good at work on sticking to a low cal breakfast and low cal lunch. Surely that will help, and if nothing else I kNOW that Curves has helped lower my blood sugar.

I hope my Netflix movies come tomorrow. I was looking at what was on my rental que and got a little freaked out when I saw that the two movies in the mail are Donnie Darko and Hedwig and the Angry Inch both recommended to me by favorites here on OD. The part that freaked me out was that one was listed as an Independent movie and the other as a Gay/Lesbian movie. But then I thought how much I enjoyed the movies Leonalia recommended, and they were both movies I never would have rented on my own. Its good to expand my horizons and watch movies I normally wouldn't watch.

I was noticing today how many of my favorites have strong opinions about religion. I have some favorites who are very religious and then I also have some who are atheists or agnostic. I wonder if this says Im a very open minded person who can be accepting of differing viewpoints or does it just mean I'm easily lead. :) It helps that I dont have a strong opinion either way. I was not raised in any faith so its hard for me to believe.

Me Saturday - 2/28/2004

Rats, I was going to pat myself on the back for writing every day for a month but I see by the calendar that February still has one more day. Ive got to admit that looking back, and seeing 28 days worth of entries makes me proud of what I have accomplished and gives me the desire to keep it up next month. Haven't decided yet if I will or not.

Last summer my mom and I talked about how life is too short to just worry about paying bills, and that even if we had to go into debt we should take a nice vacation this Spring. We had talked about renting a car and driving to St Louis, Nashviile, and Savannah and then flying home. Now that its getting close to Spring she is backing out on me. Every time I bring it up she changes the subject to how broke she is. Im in desperate need of something to look forward to. I may have to go by myself. I want to go somewhere warm, but not hot, where I can enjoy flowers.

I spent most of the day napping with the cats. I was trying to make progress in the book Im reading. Love In the Time of Cholera. I got it expecting a cholera outbreak with lots of people dying, but so far its far more about love than cholera. I kept falling asleep so I didnt ever get much accomplished today. It was supposed to be in the 50's today but there was a cold wind that kept me from doing much outside. I did take a tour of the backyard and found two crocus that are going to bloom any day.

Me 2-28-2014

I wish it was in the 50’s another snow storm expected this weekend so I will probably stay close to home. I was planning once again on going to St Joe but that probably wont happen. Instead I’ll stay home and read.

I'm still amazed that back in 2004 I stuck with Curves. Also wondering if I kept it up into March. I bet Star dying sent me into a tail spin.

Good Things I did for me

Ran 2 miles at 4.5. Ran 1 mile at 4.8 Ran 3 half miles at 5.3 and ran a quarter mile at 5.3 I was supposed to do 5 half miles at 5.3 but I ran out of gas

Stayed in calorie range by alot

Worked out with Angie