Just me, then and now in Grandma and me

Me 2-22-2004

This will be a short entry since Gabby Goo Goo keeps wanting to sit in between me and the lap top. I didnt get much accomplished today, and that is the fault of the cats too. I was just going to finish one chapter of Love In The Time of Cholera when the cats all decided they wanted to cuddle with me. Its been so long since Oink has even ventured into my room that I wanted to encourage him so we spent the day reading and cuddling. Now Im thinking of taking tomorrow of work so i can do the cleaning I should have done today.

Me Monday - 2/23/2004

I went ahead and took today off as a personal day and worked on cleaning the house. Im almost done except for my room and my bathroom.

Me Tuesday - 2/24/2004

I wonder if it would count as an entry to just say Im tired. Ive got a headache. Im going to bed. I couldnt get the picture I wanted so everyone will have to do with a rerun. Its a cute rerun anyway. :) I guess since writing everyday for the month of February is my own rule I could say it counts. But I have some "deep thoughts", and if I wait until tomorrow I would forget them. :)

I watched two movies over my long weekend that were recommended to me by one of my favorites here. They were French films called My Fathers Glory and My Mothers Castle. . They films were the childhood memories of Marcel Pagno, a writer and film maker in France during the early part of the 1900's. Both movies had scene after wonderful scene of a happy childhood but in the last ten minutes he recounts his mother dying when he was 14. His brother dying in middle age, and his friend from childhood dying in WW1. He ends the movie with a comment about life being horrible with only a few happy things occuring between tragedies. I saw it exactly opposite. Life is mostly wonderful with a few tragedies. I started wondering if that wasnt a basic difference between French and American people, I hd always heard about a Gallic temperment or attitude but this is the first time Ive saw an example. Of course it could also be because he died before his last book was made into a movie and they were trying to cram everything in at the last minute. :)

Over all though I enjoyed the films and would love to learn more about the man. I wonder if his films are available on Netflix as one in particular about life after WW1 sounds very interesting.

Me Wednesday 2-25-2004

I think I may have made some progress today with my emotional eating problem. Yesterday I was in a bad mood because the boss told me that she had given our manager a list of people recommended for bonus but that my name wasn't on it because of tardiness. Though when I asked her how many times I had been late this last quarter she could only come up with one time. I know that was just her way of trying to motivate me to get to work earlier. I was also irritated by all the people trying to give me Mardi Gras beads. Hello! We are not in New Orleans and we are not at a parade so cut it out! I decided to really "show them" the only part of Fat Tuesday I was going to celebrate was the over indulgence part so I ate donuts, cakes, cookies, and candy.

By 2 my blood sugar was 412 and I had a heck of a headache which lasted the rest of the day. While I was in a bad mood yesterday I sent an email to the boss asking if I could have Thursday and Friday off. The only way I got into work today was by telling myself it would be the last day I would have to do it this week. Well when I got to work and asked the boss about it she said that Debbie has asked her for those same days off before she read my email. So that put me in another bad mood, and I wanted to really "show her" by eating donuts for breakfast. Instead I remembered how bad I felt yesterday and ate my diabetic approved breakfast. Yay me! I know for those of you to whom food is just food none of this will make any sense but I turn to food for everything, mad, sad, glad, etc. Im trying to convince myself to buy some flowers to treat myself rather than food but they dont carry flowers in the vending machines. :) .

Me Thurs 2-27-2014

In reading my entry from 10 years I’ll that in addition to a French temperament to look on the bad side I have to add the Scandinavians. This wildy sweeping generalization comes to me strictly from movies and books.

I think I’m going to gain again this week. I’m trying to tell myself its OK its just a number and I know what I have been doing wrong. Too many nibbles, tastes, and licks and not writing them down nor increasing my exercise. I’m determined next week to hit my 500 calorie burn average.

Good Things I did for me

Worked out with Angie

Zumba

Ran 3 miles

30 minute intervals on the bike