I think its time in Feelings man...

So I wrote like a month ago about how me and the girl I am with right now were talking about getting clean together and finally give up the dope. Well, I am happy to say that day, atleast i really hope, is today!
She was texting me while i was at work last night and was saying she was doing some acid that night. Now to those who have not done acid, it is not a fucking drug. Believe whatever you want, but LSD, as well as psylocibin mushrooms, are tools, when used properly, to access parts of the mind we bury and hide even from ourselves sometimes. Sure are there recreational uses for them? Duh? I am not arguing this. But like damn near everything ever created ever, there are more than one use for this thing. Just because you do not think it is legitimate does not mean it does not work. Keep your PERSONAL truth away from OBJECTIVE truth! Somethings are just fact that can not be changed with debate and hollering.
Diatribe over. Deep breath in..... and out.
SO anyway, she was in the midst of a “bad trip” (side note, no such thing as a bad trip. You unlocked something about you or learned something about you that you did not want to deal with and were forced to face it. This is actually quite mentally healthy, and maybe just maybe might change your life. ) So in this thought loop, she was facing some serious regret and self pity, stemming from her life in active addiction.
Luckily, I am very experienced with LSD and these kinds of experiences, so I was able to guide her through it and help her face her inner self. She hates life. She was honor roll in school, popular, tons of friends, scholarship material in high school. All of this was wasted because of her addiction. Same thing happened to me. If I am being honest, not judgmental, I actually lost more than she did with my life choices. I had some very amazing opportunities growing up. Like I would be someone had i not chosen this direction in life. Instead, I have been homeless twice in life before the age of 21, shot at, stabbed, robbed, beaten. I do not even want to think of how many times I have almost lost my life, both by overdosing and from contemplating suicide and attempting twice. So I know exactly how she is feeling.
I fucking love this girl. I have not told her that yet because we are still pretty young in our relationship and i do not want to mess anything up, but she has my heart. I will do anything for her.
So I asked if she was ready to finally put it away and start a new life and she said yes! If you have read my previous posts, you will know i am not perfect by any means and still struggle with addiction myself. The one thing I have going for me is I have better self control, for the most part. I have already had my fun and am able to sort of compartmentalize my use, for a lack of a better term.
I do not need to get fucked up if I do not want to. Will i turn down a good time, if I do not have to be responsible the next day, absolutely not. But I also can say no and be fine if I logistically can not get high.
Hopefully we can do this. It is going to suck and i know it. Its going to be a long hard road to go down, but i know we can do it.