A Big Sigh in How do I explain how I feel...

I have a life in a country where it seems to me that I am living for nothing, because I am wasting my energy on a job that I never wanted but I had to have, to have my own allowance, but it feels useless because I can’t live the life I wanted, I am stuck with my parents in a city that I never wanted nor even thought that I would end up coming back to. I have studied and dedicated my life to a different major that has nothing in common with where I am working, I know there are bigger issues and complicated stories with difficult decisions that has to be made, not only that but major sacrifices. I can’t get over leaving the States and Canada..... How can anyone live in a routine city.... My mentality is different and my head is stuck in a different country...... I just hate this feeling I don’t want to try to fit in I just want to be found to have them fit in.... I don’t go out because I live further away from places, courses cost more than USA and Canada.