Baby's sleeping, i don't know for how long especially since Toby just let out one of his famous (not very appreciated) barks. Paola's sitting on my lap, singing. Xavier's in the living room, watching cartoons (and now I just heard Dia going "aaahhh" from the room, so that didn't last long. I always feel like I never have that "alone moment" i need to really sit and write, like I used to. When the kids are sleeping, I'm generally cleaning (although you wouldn't think so If you came into my house cause it never looks "perfect", there always is some kind of mess somewhere, or dishes in the sink at some point during the day) I have friends who's houses just look so darn clean, I DONT know how they do it... Sometimes I tell myself that it's because they work, and spend less time 'messing up' the house... It doesn't really bother me, the mess, but what does is that I feel like I'm constantly cleaning (more so that spending real 'quality' time with the kids) and that I don't have much to show for all of that effort, you know. And sometimes I feel guilty for not playing so much with the kids, it's almost like I forgot how to be a kid sometimes, between being the house police, managing as best I can the house cleaning, cooking from scratch every meal, trying to get out of the house with the kids once in a while so I don't go craycray, trying to keep the kids fairly clean lol Sometimes my inner perfectionnist wants to take get mad, cause I can't do it all, it's about priorities, so I have 15 minutes free, what do I do with them? Do I allow myself some Facebook time, do I clean as much as I can within that time frame or do I brush my teeth and put a bit of makeup on? At some point, something's gotta give... And, yeah, I do watch my shows at night, with Luis, but I consider that to be our special us time, and fitting some cleaning in that time isn't something I'm willing to do. I love my life. I love the people in it. I feel incredibly blessed. I could however use a bit more time, or maybe have a cleaning lady, part-time nanny or a cook? Haha, in my dreams. I gotta go though now, cause baby's getting impatient (yes, she's still awake from when I started this entry. Here are the last 2 videos I did (I edit my videos at night, after watching my shows, Luis plays his games, and I edit beside him, filming is easy, I do it during the day with the kids around) I'm happy I do this, I feel like I will have some nice footage for the kids to see later... Kind of like our life-story in video.
So, first Video is of my pregnancy with Dia::
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)And the second, is just a 6 months baby update, of me and Dia:
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