Sounds familiar right? Well that "confrontation" went just as I had suspected, actually it went worse than I had imagined. So after I saw that he had given his son money yesterday I was hotter than a two dollar pistol. So being the the mature person I am, I decided to wait until I cooled down before I talked to him about it so it could be more of a conversation instead of an all out brawl.
So we had our bimonthly counseling session tonight. I thought it'd be better to bring up the issue there because I know how ridiculously defensive he is about his son. So we get there. He's fucking 15 minutes late. Really? Walks in there like a cocky motherfucker. Then he proceeds to tell them what his problem is:
He's mad because I don't think I want to have any more kids. He's mad because he went into this thinking we were gonna have at least one more kid. Guess what, I went into this thinking we were going to be able to be LEGALLY married and LIVING together, and guess what.. Two and a half years later, we STILL aren't either! So I'm sorry things change. I'm sorry I don't see kids in our future when my kid can't even live in your house right now!!!
So then it's my turn to say what my problem is. First I start with his annoying ass attitude for the past two/three weeks because of this body building competition. Then I talk about him giving money to his son behind my back after WE agreed we wouldn't do that after what he did to me.
Guess what? He BLEW the FUCK up! I mean like ridiculous. I've never seen him that mad. You know what his justification was? Its his SON and he's going to do for him because I do for Cassidy. ARE YOU FUCKING SHITTING ME??? Of course I "do" for Cassidy. SHES NINE!!! She's a CHILD! Yeah, you're right I buy her shit and do shit for her! She is NINE YEARS OLD! So we went back in forth for a while. Then I threw my rings at him, he stormed out of the session. The male therapist went after him, the female therapist stayed and talked to me for a little bit.
I have a mix of emotions right now. I'm shocked/appalled he would react like that. But I'm also calm and somewhat content. Who knows how I'll feel tomorrow, but right now I am just like "deuces". Don't care. I don't know if I want to be with him. After seeing him act the way he did, I just..can't. You're going to disrespect me like that so you can wipe our 21 year old son's butt? Ok. Go for it. But I've been disrespected too many times by too many guys and i'm not about to stand for that shit now. Right now I'm like one and done.
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