Sigh in Day after day

I can’t say I didn’t expect things to go bad. I already mentioned in my previous entry that I was apprehensive of what was to come. And as it turns out, the bad couldn’t just wait another day. I leave for Mumbai tomorrow and yesterday, the matchstick for the explosion was ignited. I was enjoying my day with my family when my phone vibrated. I decided to look at it, after moment’s hesitation. It was what I had been waiting for. The teen camp pageant nominee list. But as I scanned through it too quickly for my own good, I felt a punch to the gut. I looked through it again slowly making sure I hadn’t missed anything. But, no doubt, my name wasn’t there. And what hurt more was that my friend’s name was. My best friend. Who I had to smile infront of everytime she succeded and I lagged behind. It wasn’t always this way. I used to be the best. The star student. Popular. Pretty. None of that remained. How everything changed is a story I’ll tell later.
She was on the list. I was not. And that was that.
The thing was, nobody even wanted to be in the pageant. Everyone thought it was stupid. So I had to pretend to be relieved that I was not selected.
I had to swallow my pride and tell my best friend that it was going to be okay, that she had talent and she would do well in the pageant.(it wasn’t a beauty pageant)
But I get over things pretty quickly so I’m thinking things will be alright.
Also, I have been in my home town for the past week and a mobth before I arrived, I had told my friends here about my visit and asked them to meet me. But as of yet, they hadn’t made up their mind on the date and place. I had been waiting for a week for them to settle on a date but I ran out of patience today when they cancelled on me again. And so, I’m leaving tomorrow without seeing my middle school friends.
So yup. The “bad” phase has started.