Feels like a return? in Blunders and Wonders

  • March 16, 2019, 10:55 a.m.
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I used to have another online journal few years ago. I hope this can be a somewhat similar place to vent my thoughts and fears. I think I’ll mostly write here when I’m feeling really low, so this is not a complete representation of me.

I feel like I fucked up at work yesterday. Nothing major, I guess, though it feels like that. Crushing. Why do I have to be such a depressed lump that cannot cope with a normal work life? I hate the fact that I’m so dependent on receiving feedback and encouragement at work. Or at anything really. I feel like I can’t trust my own judgement on things.

I also hate myself quite a lot these days. I know exactly what I should do to lose weight - I’ve known it since elementary school - but I never find it in me to do it. Chocolate tastes better than loneliness. Happiness might taste even better, but I haven’t had that flavour in a while.


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