I swear, sometimes I think I’m losing my mind.
Ex-husband has GF #4 now. The numbers started after the divorce. I don’t feel right giving negative numbers to people, so I don’t count the ones before the divorce. Less than 3 weeks ago, he was begging to take me to dinner (which normally means him trying to get me drunk to take advantage of me). He was professing his love and I was adamantly telling him he didn’t understand what love was. Less than 3 weeks ago he was saying we should get back together since after a year of divorce I still have 0 freedom and he is still trying to control me. Over the last 3 weeks he has stalked me more than normal, which is an accomplishment. But now he has GF #4. I’m hoping this one sticks for a bit, because he is less of an asshole to me and the kids when he has a GF. He’s also made it clear that I can’t date. On more than one occasion. Since he’s went public with his relationship, does that mean I am now free to date without fear of him stalking me?
The worst part about all this is that I am a successful, strong woman, except when it comes to his bullshit.
I put up with for years. He is narcissistic and controlling. I finally realized our entire marriage was him grooming me to believing I couldn’t make it without him and I deserved all the shit and affairs he put me through. Seventeen years of mental and emotional abuse takes its toll on a soul.
My soul is finally recovering, but I still fear him. Typing that hurts.
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