Singles Confrerence in General Randomness

So tonight I went to a singles conference at church. It was good, it was funny, it was intense. The only problem (well the bigger of the two anyway) was that there was a woman there that I really like but that kind of hurt me in the past. And the problem was that she sat right were I could so easily see her. Seriously, looking at the stage she was right there in the corner of my eye and so easy to just glance over at. I was kind of scared that she would be there but at the same time hoping that she would. I wanted to see her but I didn't. Has anyone ever had that problem? But anyway. Life goes on. Of course the other problem was that during the conference the speaker made me look inside myself and see things I didn't want to see. But I was kind of expecting that. I know I'm too screwed up at the moment to be in a relationship but I don't really want to believe it. It was a good conference anyway. The speaker was Dr. E (Eric Sanders or something like that). He was funny and he was real.