Lately I just feel so lost. My life always seems to fall apart right when it seems to be perfect. I am going to school and doing something I love. I moved away from home to fully understand what responsibility is. I found the love of my life. But then everything happened so fast. I blink and I loose it all. Within two hours I found someone to take my place in my apartment and decided to move back home. Not a big deal right? Wrong my grandparents wanted nothing to do with the idea so now what. My best friend, my everything welcomes me to live with her. Perfect everything is cleared up. Wrong again, my mother did not like the idea of me staying with her (we will call her starr). You see Starr and my mother do not get along and never have but that is a story for another time. So I move back to my grandparents house but within four days my depression kicked in which is what I was scared of. My grandfather was stressed and taking everything out on me when there are two others in the house. So I needed to get out of there immediately. Starr’s offer was still on the table and I knew it never would never be off the table and I am grateful. So today was the day. I moved most of my bins leaving behind my bed and dresser until I can find someone with a truck. But that is not all thats going on causing all this stress and pain inside of me. The love of my life, my sweetheart, my happiness and on and on, he proposed to me and with out hesitation I said yes. He is amazing and he is everything I thought I’d never have but there he is holding my heart. But it is getting hard for me like really hard. He is off at college which do not get me wrong is only an hour and a half away but the problem you may ask.... I do not have my license and his car is back home eight hours away. So seeing each other is impossible, not really im being dramatic but its hard with the schedules we have to find time to see each other. But I am going to make this work and he is not going anywhere but it is just hard at times and I wish that we could just be together starting our lives with one another. I just want to be annoyed when he wakes me up to give me a kiss goodbye before going to practice and I want to see that quirky smile he gives me when I am pretending to be mad at him even though he can see right through me. I just want to go back to being the happy go lucky girl that left last week
Simply, Me
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