Each Year in Stygian Black Mire in General Mental Anesthesia
- Jan. 1, 2019, 12:06 a.m.
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NOTE: Anger Infused Entry.
Just received a certified letter today stating that I was turned down for chemotherapy for ulcerative colitis (after my GI said I was approved!!!)
With every other medication a failure and my health deteriorating faster than I can type and not enough money to see the only person capable of saving my life; I desperately needed the chemo in the hopes of extending my life long enough to reach out to the healing hand oh so far away.
My first infusion was to start this Thursday and I have my next 3 appointments already scheduled. Now they’ll have to be cancelled as I can’t afford it. Life has been an unequivocal hell trying to survive this long without hospitalization and in the letter it specifically states (in all caps no less) THE QUANTITY WAS MISSING FROM THE REQUEST.
My fucking GI office that filled out the paperwork for financial aid (after I provided what I needed to) forgot to put in the amount of medication I need, so I was denied.
Of course, my GI’s office is not open until Wednesday and I did speak with the after hours nurse, but she couldn’t help. Why is it that every single GI that I’ve ever met in a 26 year span has been an incompetent asshole?
No treatment for me.... :’(
As always, I’m screwed.
And 2019 will continue with the annual tradition of every single aspect of my miserable life being a giant pile of painful bloody shit! Some people were just born to test the boundaries of suffering.
I haven’t slept more than 2 hours in a day in over 3 months, I hope if I close my eyes tonight… they do not open. At least I’ll be feeling better, and that’s all I give a shit about.
Happy fucking new year.
Last updated January 02, 2019
Shattered ⋅ January 01, 2019
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Marg ⋅ January 01, 2019
Do you have the opportunity to reapply if the GI sorts out the missing info? What a careless blunder! They sure don't make it easy - in any country it seems - to get well☹️
Exhumed By Scrying Eyes Marg ⋅ January 03, 2019
Yes, but it could take months (according to the appeal process on the paperwork). I did get irate with my GI's office today and I think it's handled... we'll see.
Very careless.
I just received an email about a new donation. (hug) You didn't have to, but I'm extremely humbled for your support. My head has just been swimming lately. I don't know if it's meds, stress, pain, anxiety... I can't think straight or get out of my own way. I just feel like a bumbling idiot; it's so hard to focus. I don't even know why I'm writing this.
Marg Exhumed By Scrying Eyes ⋅ January 03, 2019
I'm very glad to but just wish it could be more because I know it's a drop in the ocean compared to what you need. I'm not surprised you're all over the place considering what you've been through - many a man would have completely crumbled by now.
Deleted user ⋅ January 01, 2019
I am sorry to hear this I hope he will fill in the missing part so you can get the treatment you need. Don't give up yet hang in there my friend.
Exhumed By Scrying Eyes Deleted user ⋅ January 03, 2019
Squeaky wheel may have gotten the grease, we shall see if indeed it was grease or just spit. I'm trying to hang in there, but my arms are wicked sore.
TL ⋅ January 01, 2019
This is horrible! This is not a thing in my country. We all have free access to healthcare :( There has to be a way for you to get treatment
Exhumed By Scrying Eyes TL ⋅ January 03, 2019 (edited January 03, 2019)
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Yes, it's tough here in the states. I'm all for free healthcare, but Americans (by and large) are fearful of the word socialism (even though they love their medicaid, medicare, libraries, police, military, fire departments, bridges, social security, public parks etc...) all taxpayer funded, but for whatever reason they don't consider it socialism. People here are just idiots, they can't see the forest through the trees.
Tempestuous1 ⋅ January 01, 2019 (edited January 01, 2019)
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Gotta love the fucking health care system. I am so sorry. :( I know this doesn't offer much consolation, especially considerng the importance of yours, but my quality of life was diminished thanks to some crappy insurance company taking delight in denying an arm brace I needed in order for my arm to get back to normal range of motion after I broke it, simply because they didn't deem it necessary...yet my surgeon stated otherwise. Now I'll never be able to straighten my right arm again...but oh well, it's not necessary, right? And basically the health insurance doesn't want to do anything for my dad now because he is over 70. Hopefully yours will get worked out. (((Hugs)))
Leanne 🌈 ⋅ January 03, 2019
For fucks sakes dude :(