unknown in Round 2

I hate when I feel like an option and not a priority, shit half the time I don’t even feel like an option....wtf....everything was going well and things were improving and now I feel as though Im a problem for you....idk im so fucking confused....I need answers and you wont give them. I need reassurance and you wont give that…half the time you wont give kisses either....why can I not break this cycle…you act like Im the problem when you are acting weird, you question me and get defensive when I question you…I have done everything I can, I go above and beyond for you.....daily and you ogive me bare minimum convincing me its love....I should be ever so grateful that you allow me a space in your life....what happened to the girl I used to be who took shit from no one who stood her ground at all costs who would rather be alone than unloved and under appreciated....why am I in this....I know this isn’t right.....where did my self love go.....I feel like trash around you…but yet I cant be away from you....