2/10/14 in Life

More often than not, I have difficulty falling asleep, which is out of the ordinary for me. I contribute this to work related “stress.” In August, the job I had been at for 6 years, eliminated my position. I was really angry about this. I didn’t get to say bye to my coworkers or anything. Luckily Facebook exists, but it still wasn’t the same.

About a month after that, I was able to find a prn (as needed) job. I have been able to get pretty consistent work from this job, however nothing is predictable. I go into emergency rooms and do assessments when someone is suicidal, needs to detox from chemical dependency or is having mental health issues. Last week, for my regular shifts, I worked one hour. Not good. I was able to pick up a couple shifts for a different county, so I was able to get hours. The good thing about this job is the pay, I am working half the time I did at my full time job and making the same amount of money, if not more. The downside is not having insurance and again the unpredictability.

One of my old coworkers/friends has a private practice. I am seeing a few clients there and hope to build that. In December I got trained in the grief recovery method. I’m excited about this because grief work is something I really want to focus on. I also want to focus on EMDR and trauma resolution. I am in the process of going my “pilot group” for the grief work. When that’s over, I plan to do some marketing. I am trying to decide if I should look for a full time job or just trust that I am going to get the hours I need one way or the other. I do believe that God provides and I just need to turn that over and not spend so much time stressing over it. But I need to take some responsibility/action as well.

There is an office at the private practice available and I really want to rent it so I can have my own space. I am currently using someone else’s office. The rent for the office is $800 a month. I believe I can cover this with the private practice money and still have some left over. Currently, I pay her $25 an hour. I would have to furnish it, which of course costs money. But I’m excited about being able to decorate the space how I want it.

So that’s why I think I’m having problems falling asleep. Maybe writing about it will help.