loyalty in new life who dis?

so complicated. soooo soo complicated. I need it to be simple. I want things to be simple.
i’m falling for someone else. someone who gives me butterflies. makes me feel safe.
he is 6 hours away. 2 states away. he lives where i went to college. I knew him when i was in college, he was dating another girl that lived in the dorms.
We’ve kept in contact over the years. B was always protective over the girls in the dorm. made us all feel safe, had our back.
when t and i separated. B and I started flirting. then i started seeing J. But some how over the last 2 years B has always known when to text me. On my worst day when J was being abusive B would magically know to text me. Early this yea J and i broke up. but i kept seeing him because i was to weak to walk away. Then my dad got sick and died. I spent less and less time with J. then B texted me and just asked. “who does your heart belong too?”
I replied with “no one why” he said he was ready to settle down and to let him know when i was emotionally available or interested.
Let me tell you about B.. he isnt one to settle down. we all thought he was gonna settle with the girl from college. long story it didnt end good. since then he has pretty much been a whore haha. he is an alpha man who flirts. Girls want him. He is a big guy and not a model but his personality, confidence, and the way he carries himself makes him so sexy.
god he is sexy.