I've been logging on to OD for days now waiting for it to go down. When I typed in the url today it was finally gone. Finished. Over. Bye bye.
I'm a lot more upset than I thought I'd be. I downloaded my diary. I went on a search and found diaries I'd started as a teenager. I had three or four over the years which surprised me. Every couple of years I'd just start over. The sad part was I really wanted to hang on to a lot of those favorites I had. I had so many supporters, especially in my most recent diary. I went through a lot of tough shit and they were really there for me in ways people in real life weren't. Some of my favorites would go a month or two without writing and I guess some didn't see the site was leaving in time or they just didn't care.
Anyway I'm glad I've got a least a few ways to stay connected. That's something.
In other news..I'm 33 weeks pregnant today. Yesterday the baby hardly kicked which was unlike him so I called the doctor after hours of worrying. He said go to L and D and get monitored. As soon as I get there and they get me hooked up they blare his heart beat through the machine and I just bawl because I was convinced he was dead and wouldn't hear a heartbeat like with my last pregnancy. It took two nurses to console me. I haven't cried that hard in a long time.
He began to thrash around like an ADD kid in a mosh pit, making me look like a paranoid preggo but I didn't care. I was just glad my baby boy was okay.
Bryan got paid today and we went to the mall. He made me wait on a bench while he got me something at Kay Jewelers. I assume for Valentines day. You know what I got last year for Valentines day? Cheated on. This ones already looking better.
So yep. I'm due in 7 weeks. I have to push a baby out my vag in 7 weeks or less. This is mind fucking me like nothing else ever has. Wow just...wow. I'm working on my breathing but its hard when you're a stubborn hippie who hates hippies. Everything seems so damn stupid and if I hear one more piece of advice from a fucking crunchy mom I'm gonna slap her with a granola bar.
I'm gonna try to post some pictures...
Okay I tried. I tried really hard. I don't understand the difference between html and direct links and all that crap so if anyone wants to school me on how to put a photobucket picture up please do so.
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