Journal 1 in Every Reason

Having all of your friends drop you half way through sophomore year is definitely no something to be expected. As she said “I think you, me, x, and y should keep our distance from each other.” all I said back was you just want me to keep my distance from you three she then says “yeah.” It was the emotional break of me I started hiding my feelings only showing I was happy when I was around them in classes so they would not think to talk to me. Worst feeling as I thought. I began to go back to the rest of the friends I had before those three came along and have been really good friends ever sense. We made it through sophomore year together and still now to junior year when my friends now c and k moved schools we still are good friends. This summer was interesting I gained a lot of friends that I never and used to swear I would not be friends with. It was a very good summer but the wrong part about it was how I met them. I met b through a party I was at with c and k because it was m, c’s sister that made the party. I messed around with p at the part b’s used to be best friend they have not talked sense about two weeks after that party. P come to find out had a girlfriend at the time and b was dating m at the time. I realized m was cheating on b when b and p left together then s showed up and was all over m. I told p and then me and p told b about m. He did not become as mad as I would have been but I think he was more in shock. It was one hell of a week honestly. I became good friends with b and I really liked that we were just friends then I caught feelings he caught feelings and it was just down hill from there. The first few days of it were amazing honestly I had a good time I really did. He just then but distance between me and him here recently and it messed me up. I actually thought he liked me and we were going to make it work with how much we have in common with each other but I was very wrong. I cry a decent amount now. I still go over to his house just like I did all summer. Now I just go over there to see the rest of his family not specifically him. I miss that time when me and him were so close it was so nice. But once one good thing happens something is sure to follow with something bad I hope that changed but at this point I do not know if it ever will. I wanted to keep everyone in this journals names a secret but m and me have the same name if that is not even more weird for b. I found out a lot about b that I never knew I would. I hate his real mom, love his step mom and dad like there my own parents. His siblings are like my siblings now.