refuse in new life who dis?

do not spiral, do not spiral, do not spiral.
i’m over him. mostly… sometimes i miss him. i start to spiral. i start to panic that i will never see him again or he doesn’t love me anymore. i don’t want to think about him with another girl.
Like right now I texted him asking if i can buy some bugs from him for Thor my leopard gecko and he isn’t responding. Its ok. he is prolly with a girl. im okay. he destroyed me.
i spent the weekend with a guy(bub) so why shouldn’t he.
this guy is trying to help me. making me help myself and see all the ways justin was wrong and how much he hurt me.
Bub has known me for 14 years, he sees how much I’ve changed. I could start a relationship with him. He says im his and he is mine but with 6 hours between us who knows. I want to text him and talk to him everyday but i don’t want to be needy. i don’t think he will deal with my issues. i dont know if he is patient enough.
please don’t spiral, please don’t let me mess things up.
I will be okay.