Alas, another night before work. My wonderful son manages to sleep through the night consistently, but here I am, wide awake
WHAT THE FUDGE
Look guys, I have to share I have a problem with sleep. Ive done sleep studies, I have had the meds, but its not good. I dont like ANYTHING they give me. The side effects arent worth the sleep man. I dont like feeling groggy or nauseas.
There was a time i would just smoke somthing green and leafy, but I avoid that now. What? Im breastfeeding. And though i dont judge others for doing the damn thing while they have a kiddo on the boobs, I have a judgy mother in law that is constantly in my business
constantly
i love her and adore her help but she can be overbearing. and i dont want to have to sneak smoke. I mean, ive been clean for MONTHS. I know only one hit would do me justice so I can fall asleep...but nah. I cant risk it. sigh
We will be moving soon so maybe I can try then. I cant tolerate this constant loop of being exhausted and reading all night. I start to pass out usually the same day a few hours before work. Its just not right im on zombie mode.
Speaking of my lovely mother in law, i had to start monitoring what shes feeding my kid. She gave him bananas, which isnt good for kids his age. they cause constipation and boy oh boy did she EVER find that out. The only reason this brings me joy is because she actually was sneaking him bananas.
as in hiding it from me when i asked her not to. sigh
so when he didnt poop for a few days i panicked. Well it was more like 10 days. I started him on a regimen of 2oz apple juice mixed in with 2oz of nursery water. I also gave him prunes and it worked like a charm.
3 diapers and 2 wads of paper towels later, she decided she HAD to listen to me. The kid was stopped up for 15 days. It was crazy but just cause I am a new mom and she raised a son doesnt mean what they did back then is always right. Im pretty lax you know? I know i was a maniac when i was a kid. I fully expect when he can he will climb trees and ride his bike as fast as he can and have scraped knees and elbows. BUT i dont play when it comes to the food he eats man.
serves her right for having to take care of the crazy poo fest. all i could do was laugh.
We still havent moved in yet. We have had the house for about 2 months but its hard to get everything ready when we both are working 40-60 hours a week. I am too tired to do anything but travs job was having a sale. I couponed and wound up saving $111 on my grocery order for shelf stable materials. Its nice because when we do move in and do our initial grocery shop, our pantry will have a nice stock of stuff I love to use when i cook.
aaahhh hell. work is coming at 6am and im not even remotely tired. Ive tried exercising, counting things, counting backwards, doing housework.
I miss Mary Jane. One day she and i will reunite.
anyway, hope everyone has a good night. Its good to see some of my OD homies here. I dont feel so alone :) Be blessed everybody!
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