Update in Stories of my life... literally

Haven’t been here for a few months. To get caught up, I stopped having sex with the guy for a few months from the army. The last guy just wanted to have sex with me, were still cool though. If I had known that before I wouldn’t have let myself feel anything more. Since then, months ago, my ex & I have gotten back together & I thought I would be happy & the weird thing is when I’m with him I am happy and he makes me laugh but I have a horrible gut feeling that I’m the long run it’s just never going to work. I’ve always wanted a love so amazing. I wanted a man who would notice the little things, do the little things. Do special things for me just because. Buy me and my mom flowers & get along with my dad & be that boyfriend that everyone loves or at least sees how happy he makes me. And I love my boyfriend. He makes me happy but he never does the little things, he avoids my family at all costs because he thinks they hate him. They don’t hate him but I think everyone just knows that he’s not the one so they don’t care much for him. Plus he doesn’t speak the same language as them & my parents can speak English fine but it would be nice to have someone who can communicate with them in Spanish too. We grew up totally different & our parents are opposites. I wish he understood my family but he doesn’t… But honestly I am attached to him & I feel like I don’t exactly have anyone else (check next entry for more details). But I care for him and we are good together but I’ve dreamed of more. Is it completely foolish of me to want more? To dream that one day I’ll randomly & completely unexpectedly meet someone & just connect & end up falling in love? Am I stupid for wanting a man that will know me well enough to know that I love something as simple as a sunflower & will surprise me with something special like by taking me to a sunflower garden?? I don’t want exactly that I’m just giving an example. But I’ve wanted that great love & I know I’m young and that no one is perfect, fuck, I’m not perfect at all. But I want to meet the love of my life already so I can be happier sooner. Is this dream even realistic? Or am I expecting the impossible?