My heart is hurting over the end of OD and I find myself wanting to write - to put words to page, as I have so many times in the last 13+ years that I've been using Open Diary. I just don't know what words to use to express how I am feeling. I feel sad and I feel kind of angry and I feel so nostalgic for all that OD was to me and all that it will never be again.
The truth is, many of us had kind of outgrown OD and me, personally, I had quit using it in the same way as I had in the past. It wasn't the same thing that it was to me in the beginning but it was still important and a presence in my life and a comfort to me. I will miss it. I find myself wanting to call someone and tell them....like when you lose a person close to you and you just want to shout "I am hurting! I have lost something important to me!" But I won't. I know that I couldn't possibly find the words to convey exactly what Open Diary has meant to me and how it changed my life. In a generation of defining yourself in 120 characters or less, how could I explain how I poured out my heart and wrote paragraph upon paragraph, page upon page of love, triumph, fear, grief, pride and everything in between. "All the feels" - lol.
I have been lurking around OD throughout the evening, reading other's farewell entries, feeling sad and debating whether to delete my diary altogether. I have it downloaded and should Bruce sell the site, I'd rather my diary not be part of it. But clicking that button is going to be hard....so hard. sigh
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