holding myself accountable in holding myself accountable.

I don’t know if anyone is able to see this post or not.but I am in desperate need to do this.i am going to post my daily updates.i have a very bad, unsuccessful ,past .I am a failure.but I don’t want to give up ,I don’t know why.so holding myself accountable for my every action.
I am going to post my 5-6 hourly or so update of current situation everyday till I finish my work in hand.hope this keeps my anxiety and panic in check.and keeps my depression away.
If anyone can read this ,maybe like or comment because it makes me more motivated to go on when I know I am accountable to answer someone.and it makes me feel that maybe someone still is interested in how I rise up from the lowest point of my life.
Extra information-I am 28 yrs old, depressed ,maniac,ex-suicidal( not anymore), failure and living shameful life ,but also trying to make a change in my life by trying to gain some education.i know I am very late/old but I don’t know why ,I don’t want to give up the idea of getting educated.
So beginning my daily updates with #k.s.changesherself