4-30-18 in My Self Helping Self Help Journey

I’ve decided to be better. I’ve decided to live better. I’ve decided to feel better.
Step 1… What is better?
I read a lot about how to change your life- blah blah blah. One particular thing that stood out to me has to be “Pick a date 5 years from now and visualize it. Write everything down from the moment you wake up to what you wear, who you see, what kind of job you have…” Honestly, that sounds way too hard. Personally I think I should start with where I want to be next year. Not all the details but the most important things. So…
On 4-30-19:
I will be living with my fiance, just like I do now, but we won’t be worried about paying our bills. I will be back in college, or close to being back in college by dealing with my student loan problems. I will weigh at least 60 pounds less than I do right now. I will have a hobby that is good for me. I will know what I want to do with my life. I will be healthy.
By the way, just coming up with that was hard. How on earth will I come up with a plan to get there?
A year. It seems so far away and I want change now! I’m an impatient procrastinator. (How does that even work?)
Ok, so this is where I want to start- I want to feel less stressed. I believe the first step is to find more time to find myself. Find more time to educate myself. Find more time to be better.
If you have happened upon this entry and read this far, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stay on me. I honestly don’t have a lot of people in my life willing or invested enough to put the effort into me. So tomorrow I will let you know if I’ve made any changes or what changes I’ve decided to make.
Me.