Journal Entry 1:
It’s late, I’m listening to ‘Do I Wanna Know’ by Arctic Monkeys while I wait on my nails to dry. I painted them black. I finished watching Pretty Little Liars earlier it is highly accounting for my mood/fashion/life inspiration. I went to Tj Maxx earlier and found the CUTEST handmade bag from Italy on sale for $35, I didn’t get it and am very much so regretting it. I’m going to go back in the morning and if it is still there I am sooooooo getting it.
Why am I freaking out about a $35 bag? That would be due to the fact that I only have $70 to my name and no job. - I had $70 and I spent about $8 on a pack of 50 Crayola markers for my art lesson plan demonstration that I have to present on monday. - So, whatever that math is now all the money I have to my name, with no job. Typical college student right here.
I have an unmade bed, a little bit of homework, a lot of energy and wet nails.
At night I feel so much more alive, I have really fallen back into some bad habits lately. Although I am on the way to combating some of those problems, some are just getting worse. I have started a food journal which is helping me not to eat so much because I feel like shit when the page for the day ends up full. I guess it is working ???? I am also on an 11 day workout journey which this is day 2 and it seems to be going well so far. I want to add 100 squats a day for 30 days just to get these thunder thighs under control. & then of course drink more water.
Then we bring back yoga, I followed Yoga with Adriene on youtube for like two weeks and it changed my life. I soon got bored with the videos and having someone tell me what to do and have since been just doing a few minutes of stretches that feel good. I honestly don’t even know if it is considered to be yoga anymore. It makes me feel better and that’s all that matters. Except for the month after this life changing discovery that I just stopped doing it - but that’s not important.
The problems I need to address: my night time adventure energy, coffee intake.
All my life I have been a night owl, deprived of the knowledge in beautiful day time energy and motivation. The last few months I have been waking up early, around 5-6 am, and getting so much shit done. With that is sleeping soundly through out the night, and starting this sleep no later than 9 pm. Basically a grandma. After spring break, that has gone to shit. Which doesn’t make sense because for the most part over break I was still on this schedule. I guess my body is still on this schedule, I naturally wake up between 8-9. I have just been lacking the super motivation and focus I once had. Who knows…
Coffee, coffee, coffee. It’s such a beautiful drink, it truly is a drug and my body craves it - along with sugar. During the super motivation period I only needed one cup of coffee and I cut myself off after 12 pm to ensure the deep sleep needed at night to charge me. This is no longer the case and it’s not as bad as it has been but I for sure need at least 2 cups day to be anything close to functioning. I need to get a handle on this. I love the smell and I think that’s where I need to grow some balls and tell myself no.
Back to earlier today, when I came home from the store. As I was walking in the back door of the dorm/apartment building I saw a fire truck through the windows out front. Which, obviously is not something that is a part of the norm. As I was walking towards the lobby the firemen were walking in towards me. One was caring this large sper looking arrow thing, like an oversized crow bar. I just by passed them and took the stairs because SOMEONE WAS STUCK IN THE ELEVATOR! Do you know how terrifying that has to be? I live on the 6th floor but I will most definitely be taking the stair for the remaining 5 weeks of this semester.
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