I need a fresh start where no one knows me from other places I've written, I feel like theres so many things I cant write about. Fear of judgement I suppose.
So dive right in ? ..
Its crazy to think of myself this time 10 years ago when I was 15, some things haven't changed and then a lot has. When I was about 11 I found a way of dealing with my emotions, I managed to deal with it myself, you have good days and bad days. I was a wreck back then, no confidence, bullied, and shy.
But now, at 25, this is my second time on anti-depressants, dealing with self harm. Its not out there enough to show people that its ok to ask for help. I cant stand people who say only people do it for attention.
I've never dealed with emotions well, it was an easy way out. But I am working on it, I have to at the end of the day, and getting help from my doctor has helped me.
I feel like lately, I go into my own bubble .. but it seems everytime I feel happy about something, someone is there to burst my bubble. Im not a fan of being snapped back to reality and dealing with all this shit.
I wish people truly seen the real me at times, its tiring letting them judge me on how they think they see me.
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