First Day in 2018...Another Year

Today another semester starts. It’s my last semester as a sophomore in college and I still don’t know what I want to do. The pressure of declaring a major is too real. I feel so lost and unmotivated. Today I was sitting in class thinking if anyone else around me feels as lost as me. I’m going to turn 20 in the summer and I won’t be a teenager anymore. I’m so not ready for more adulthood. I feel as if I’m only going to college just so I won’t disappoint my parents. I do want to become someone in life but I don’t even know what I want to do. I feel so depressed most of the time. I hate going out, I would much rather stay home. Some people would find that boring but for me that’s when I feel safe and happy. I can’t even try to tell my parents this because they would never understand. I went to four years of therapy and they think everything is fine now. Sometimes I can feel that depression creeping in. I don’t want to disappoint my parents so I guess I’ll just keep on doing whatever I’m doing now.