I hate him in My thoughts, my story, my recovery.

He text me today (the ex who was involved in my rape), after weeks of not talking.. he said hey, I said what’s up.. here I am thinking he’s going to ask how I am or something or that he wants to see me. Nope. He says “I had a question but I figured it out.” .... he makes me feel like the most insignificant replaceable worthless person. How can I love someone like that? I don’t understand. Why can’t he just leave me the fuck alone so I can move on. He just wants to keep me dangling by a thread. “I had a question but I figured it out” ..Really? I highly doubt he had any question at all, he just wanted to get under my skin. I’m going to the city for my birthday weekend, it’s supposed to be fun but I’m worried it won’t be, because he’s going to be on my mind. He is such a bad person. I don’t think he even has a soul. Just an empty vessel going around hurting who ever he can. When we first started seeing each other he told me the last girl he saw tried to kill her self over him, she jumped off a bridge but only broke her legs… he said it proudly, like it was something he took pride in. I wish I didn’t have any feelings for him at all. He’s a monster.