Bad day in My life

All I wanted to do was talk to you when I had a bad day today. I checked my email a million times today and there was nothing. I usually get an email once a day from you, but today…the one day I really need you I didn’t hear from you. Had to take my youngest son to the hospital and got bad news with his xray results. I needed someone to talk to about it and I had no one. I got into a fight with my son’s father at the hospital because while the testing was being done and the doctors are talking, he was sitting on his phone the entire time not giving a shit that his son is laying on the table and something could be wrong. I worry a lot as a mother, but to laugh at me in my face because I am worried about my own child just makes you a POS. I feel like I’m lost and I need to just get away. I want to pick up and leave. I can’t be here anymore. I came here for all the wrong reasons....I panicked. I don’t want this life.